The Last Mon Standing

i’ve been reading other people’s blog lately…

i found out that the start of new year was not that good…

many people are either complaining about their workloads or their lovelives. it seems that the start of 2006 brings that kind of aura that makes people feel soooo unhappy, and restless, and tired, and super-duper burned out…

what i’m really trying to say: beware of the full moon!!!(heck, now im a LUNAtic!!)

my energy is nearly extinguished….

i need to refuel….

AAAAARRRRGGGHHHH!!! (hey, ive been using this a lot lately)

i guess this how it is when you are frustrated and disappointed….

disappointment plus frustration can lead to a terrible fatigue that will make you wake up one morning with cramps on your legs. it is so terrible that it’ll make you so restless that you’ll just find yourself waking up at 2 am staring at the ceiling thinking nothing but the hellhole that you just fell into….

i am soo stressed out…

i cant send messages!!!

the computer keeps on asking me to verify my email! how would i suppose to do that?! look:

To confirm your email address, click the Verify Email button provided in the Welcome email Friendster sent to candlejack298@yahoo.com when you first registered

i dont have that "verify email button" …

NOW IM WAILING, MOANING, WEEPING, CRYING, SCREAMING, and all their synonyms!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

GggggggggggggggggggggGGGGGGGHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHH….

(pant… pant…)

im soooo exhausted… this is the first hell week of the year

just finished answering my midterm exam in Filipino (retorika) amd Microbiology… man i blew it… !!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

i feel stupid - but i know it won’t last for long
i’ve been guessing - i coulda been guessin’ wrong
you don’t know me now
i kinda thought that you should somehow
does that whole mad season got ya down

i feel stupid but it’s something that comes and goes
i’ve been changin’ - think it’s funny how no one knows
we don’t talk about - the little things that we do without
when that whole mad season comes around

so why ya gotta stand there
looking like the answer now
it seems to me - you’d come around
i need you now
do you think you can cope
you figured me out - i’m lost and i’m hopeless
bleeding and broken - though i’ve never spoken
i come undone - in this mad season

i feel stupid - but i think i been catchin’ on
i feel ugly - but i know i still turn you on
you seem colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around
will that whole mad season knock you down

so are you gonna stand there
are you gonna help me out
you need to be together now - i need you now

now i’m cryin’ - isn’t that what you want
i’m tryin’ to live my life on my own
but i won’t
at times - i do believe i am strong
so someone tell me why, why, why
do i feel stupid
and i came undone

im gloomy and i dunno why

sigh…

maybe im just bored

sigh…

my life is so boring

im stupid

i dont even have a single sense of humor

sigh…

i am soo tired living in this limbo… nothing is happening, no matter how i try to make my life worth living… sigh…

sure, days come and go at a very fast pace, but it seems that i was left behind…

it is just interesting to learn how other people procastinate with their lives… i envy them…

it is just fascinating to see how people try  to overcome difficult problems… while i have none… (at least not that difficult)

sigh…

i’ve been waiting for something (i know i do)…

was it hope?

was it an anticipated dream?

sigh…

whatever that was… im not sure…

sigggggghhhhhh…………

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PS this is not a poem!!!

WTF means…

WHAT

THE

FUCK

we traveled 12 hours from waaay up north to the beautiful peninsula of bataan…

sigh… i mean ouchhh

my back ached

my feet pained

and my ass (araguy) sored soooo much