I CAAAANT! (sobs)
December 22, 2007
I dont look forward to Christmas anymore. I mean I don’t enjoy it as much as I did when i was little. I am going to Isabela for my Christmas break. I feel bad since Bian and Erika are planning to go to Bian’s resort on December 27 and stay there until 30, I think. [READ MORE]
Deciding Death via Consensus
December 5, 2007
Hanzel and I entered the Neonatal (Newborn) Intensive Care Unit (NICU) at 3:45 in the morning to replace Loren and Rose. Our clinical Instructor ordered us to clean the place and check for the newborns’ vital signs.
Hanzel was having a lot of trouble taking the Respiratory and Heart Rate of a premature baby so he asked me to check them instead. Unfortunately, the baby was born an hour ago. Though premature, it was laid in an ordinary bassinet. There wasn’t an available incubator so it was left there with only an oxygen hood and a lamp to keep it alive. It was really tiny. The fingers were indeed small that one couldn’t help but think of jellies. They are dry, yet looked slimy plus the color was somewhat transparent. The hand was folded in a different way and was so…[READ MORE]
An Anticipatory Grief
December 5, 2007
Mortality is a subdued thought that is always scratching from the back of our minds- Casey
I got bored of helping my classmate putting the diaper on the baby that she just had suctioned of its secretions and bathe, so I decided to stroll around the nursery living her behind panicking. The room is not that big. Earlier, I was able to mop the place in less than 4 minutes.
Just like an eager enthusiast scrutinizing each specimen of his collection, I pored around from one bassinet to next and from one incubator to another gazing at the babies sound asleep. I somehow felt envious, it was already 5 in the morning and I haven’t sleep yet.[READ MORE]
A Letter to Someone
December 2, 2007
Dear Miss Sakamoto,
More than a year ago, I assisted a delivery in this particular hospital where I am about to return for my internship tonight (10pm-6am shift). The birth opened my awareness to the great sacrifice that hails the coming of motherhood, especially having to witness the blood, screams and pain that came with it. I would be ashamed of my self if I,[READ MORE]
